Tonight is most likely my last night of being pregnant...ever! I can say that this knowledge comes with many mixed emotions. While I am not totally sure we are "done" having kids yet, I am more sure than I have ever been.
As of tomorrow I will never feel those little hiccups and pokes again. I will never have the excitement of telling my husband that we are having a baby. Our family will be complete and I will will be on to a new phase in life. I have spent the last 10 years in that constant state of change and new arrivals. While I am excited to move on I will miss so many things about the last 10 years.
I can say I am a different woman than I was 10 years ago. Hopefully more patient and loving. My children have taught me so much and I love each one of them more than I ever thought was possible.
So...to my new little babe on the eve of your birth. I am excited to meet you and smell your little head and hold you in my arms. You are so lucky to be coming to a family of such wonderful brothers and sisters. I hope I can be a good mother to you and teach you all that you will need to know. I love you already and can't wait to look into your eyes for the first time.
I will post again soon hopefully with a name of our little boy and some pictures and hopefully with the good news that I was the first person ever that I know to get an epidural at this crazy hospital!
4 comments:
I am praying for your epidural!!! You are a wonderful mother and a beautiful woman. Can't wait to meet the newest Carn!!!
You are gorgeous! Little carnie has one of the best mamas that I know!
I am crossing all my fingers and toes for your epidural!! You are incredible--as a person, friend, and mother. Love you!
What a lucky baby to come to your home!
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